Lovebuds Anonymous

Hi again. It's just after 8am and here I am awake again. After taking two Vicatin I was hoping to sleep in. But I didn't get to sleep till somewhere after 3am and woke up at 7am with acid reflux again. GRRR I swear if I were to list my health problems out it would take up five of these damn pages!! It just pisses the hell out of me. What's worse is I can't afford to see a damn doctor for all this stuff so I have to just try and deal with it myself. Luckily I have friends who don't mind sharing their medication....I know I know, this isn't a good thing and is probably against the law but I'm telling you, I don't know what I'd do if they didn't help. I think it should be against the law for these damn doctors and insurance companies to make it impossible for anyone to get health care! I'm sorry....... I think I've stated the fact that I'm not racist (I feel the need to keep repeating that because idiots out there will see a white person making a comment about minorities and jump to the conclusion that they just MUST be a KKK member and making a derogatory statement. Well NO I'm not making one, I'm simply stating a FACT). But I've actually had a HEALTHCARE PROVIDER tell me that they couldn't help me unless I was black or homeless. Because I live with my parents at the moment (after having to move home because I couldn't make rent payments) they want to go off of my parent's income. These people don't take into consideration that my parents have their own bills and can't afford to send me to a doctor and that I don't have a job at the moment (because of medical reasons). NO!!! The woman actually tells me that if I was in the SAME situation and were black I could get help. I swear it's enough to make me want to snap someone's head off. I don't know what is wrong with this country!!! You know I'm 26 years old. I never owned any slaves! I think slavery was wrong, but you can't change what's in the past and I sure as hell know that I don't owe anybody anything. There isn't a black person alive (with the exception of some really ancient folks) who was a slave in America. If we want to get down to the nitty gritty I am of Native American descent. What about what was done AND IS STILL BEING DONE TODAY to my people? If anyone has a right to be bitching today it is the Native Americans. I hate to keep bringing this point up but it's a big heated thing right now, especially in the south. It sucks that people get a special treatment type of thing simply because they found a situation (mind you, one that happened hundreds of years ago) that they can exploit. I mean you can even look at simple things like school admissions and see how reverse discrimination works. Whatever happened to the best man/woman for the job getting promoted? It shouldn't matter what age/sex/race/religion/orientation they are! I think I should run for President and fix some things in this country. lol. Politicians have been greedy and too easy to persuade with dollar signs and ass-kissers for far too long. GRRRR!

While I'm griping hehe..... I really didn't know I needed to vent but now I'm having fun with it so let's keep going! What's the deal with all of these anti-war peoples? I mean I totally believe and agree that they have a right to their opinion and should by all means get out there and be heard.... but some of these groups just make no sense. I was watching the news and they were showing people (at the time over in London) who were marching because President Bush was visiting England. I don't understand how these people are blaming all the terrorist attacks on the US. Hey people, we're not the ones out there blowing up car bombs! Do I think that the war in Iraq is hurting innocent people? YES! IT'S WAR! der. That happens in war. It's a tragic but calculated cost and result of war. Where were all these people screaming and bitching about human rights when Sudam Hussein was testing and torturing his own people? I don't remember hearing all of these people out marching about that. No, they didn't care then. It was none of their business. What gets me is how they think the US has 'abused their global power'. Well you know what.... if the US doesn't check their balls and step in NO ONE will! I sure as hell don't remember England or Canada or France stepping in and spearheading anything. And who do you think the first person would be that got called if one of these countries got invaded or attacked? Of course...... they'd call up the good ol' USA and beg for help. "But please Mr. President you know you HAVE to help us it's your DUTY." Bleah. In my opinion these people outside the US whining are a bunch of hypocritical asses who are pissed because deep down they know that their countries are pussies who've lost their balls long ago. And for the people whining inside the US.... well I just think they're whining because they don't have anything better to do. Now before whoever is reading this gets your panties in a bunch, I'm not referring to the people who oppose war because war is an evil thing. They have a understandable stance and I can see where they make sense but ONLY if they have opposed every war that has and will ever take place anywhere in the world. You can't pick and choose these things and decide that some are ok if they agree with where you stand. The people who are idiots are the ones who are pissy just because it was the US that stepped in and did something. The people who think that the US are the "real terrorists" as I've heard some people say. Where in the hell are they getting this? Sure, all countries are terrorists to the opposing bad guy.... but then again all religions are "evil blasphemous cults" to other religions as well. But to say that the US are the terrorists based on that type of view just seems assinine. I feel like we have been pushed into a situation in which we HAD to declare war as a result of the rest of the world turning their heads and letting these "terrorist cells" get by with a gentle slap on the wrists. And you know this is a comment coming from someone who doesn't believe that war should go on. But I also realize that a world without any war is as unsurreal as a world without greed. It's not going to exist on this "plane of existence" folks. Human nature dictates that as a species we're always going to have these types of problems. Utopia doesn't exist for us in this dimension and sadly I don't think it ever will. But hey, at least we have something to look forward to as we move on up the dimensional ladder. :)

Hehehe. Well now that I've posted this blog entry that is a few chapters long I think I'm going to try and lay back down again and take a quick nap! Hoping that Dee won't kick my ass for posting such a long thing but I know she'll be cool.
Later friends! -J-

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 5:46 AM