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Friday, December 05, 2003
Wow a lot of time has passed. I figured our blogs might be a little slower now that the holidays are coming on strong. I miss ya Dee! I hope things are going well over at your household. Things are ok here, just busy busy. I've been sitting up at the hospital with Mama B and taking care of her. She's in so much pain, but I think she is going to go home tomorrow hopefully. Depends on how her night goes. Weasie and I have a long road ahead of us. Looks like we're going to be doing horse cleaning and feeding and house cleaning and stuff for the next 4 or 5 months until both Mama B and Allen are doing better. I don't mind though, after all they are the family that we chose lol.
On another note, this month is just rolling on along. I wish we could get our xmas tree up but I dunno if that's going to happen. I keep hopin that I'll get my money from California so I could have a little something to buy a few gifts with for the family but I don't know if that's going to be happening. You know I've learned the hard way not to take anyone on their word way too many times now. What sucks is that I kept my end of the deal and everytime it seems I get screwed. Ah well, maybe I'll be wrong and I will get my money. It's not even all about the money, although since I don't have any I'll admit I REALLY need it. Just for once I'd like to see someone stick to their word, even though they don't necessarily want to. I mean you don't give someone your word to do something and then as soon as you decide you don't like them anymore you choose to not do what you say you were going to do. Ya know? Be a big man or woman about it. Do what you said you were going to do and then move on. If you only kept your word with your friends and ONLY if they were still your friends what good would your word be to strangers? bleah. Anyways.
You know Dee, old crushes suck don't they? LOL! I doubt I'll ever get an answer to that email but just something saying hi and thanks for the congrats would be nice. Is that really too much to ask? It's so disgusting how the world is; at least when you're on the shitty end of it. But there's no group I can call or no one to come to my defense and say "Hey, wait a minute. This shouldn't be happening; this is a person for Christ's sake. A real, breathing, honest to goodness person with feelings. Just like you!" LOL maybe I should start that movement one day. Whaddya think?!
Ok laugh at me now, but yes I actually was flipping thru the channels the other day and watched that new "Average Joe" show. Just for one night. lol. So don't rag me too much. Anyhow, the girl wanted to see what the guys were like when she wasn't around. So she dressed up in a "fat suit" and they put on makeup and everything so you couldn't tell it was her and they had her interview the guys as the "cousin". Then they sent the guys to the poolhouse (which was rigged with hidden cameras) and she got to watch the tapes of the guys and what they said about the "fat cousin". One guy mentioned the "Fat Monica" from Friends..... ok that wasn't SO bad. They were making jokes about having sex with her and giving a lap dance. That was mean....... but nothing us fat chicks haven't heard before. Then this one guy starts talking about her being a "DUFF" which stood for something like "Designated ugly fat friend". They went on to talk about how in a group of 'hot girls' there always seems to be one fat girl. They went on and on........ it was so embarrassing, and it wasn't even about me. I just sat there thinking though, how many guys have said that about me in the past when they were hitting on one of my friends? It's strange though, because I had other fat friends who hung out and they always got laid. And trust me, they weren't pretty. I always wondered how come the guys went for them and never me? I had a friend that hung out with us whom I trust to tell the truth tell me that the reason was because everyone knew they were easy scores while I never put out. I'm wondering if that is the real reason? I dunno..... they were sorta sleazy and I was never that way. But in the end I guess I'm the depressed one sitting here alone while one of them is married and the other has a successful job and is living her life. Maybe I shoulda been another easy 'motion-of-the-ocean' lay.
For some good news, I've actually been driving some again lately! YAY!! I've only gotten really sleepy a few times and I've only went off the road once so far but I'm driving! hehee. I know that sounds not so good but I'm happy that I'm driving again anyways. :)
