Lovebuds Anonymous

I keep coming back here checking to see if Dee's posted anything, but it seems that she's been neglecting the old bloggeroo. *sigh* Get on the ball girlfriend! lol. Well, Mama B joined Curves yesterday and thinks she's going to like it. We went back again today, for the third day this week. I only went once around yesterday and the day before, but I went the full time today. I can tell too because the muscle in my shoulder is sore. Ah well that means it did good I guess. I'm glad it's only three times a week. I wish though that I could get a treadmill that I could use at home. The one that Mom bought (it was cheapie anyways) that one time just sat here. I couldn't even use it; everytime I would stand on it the thing would squeel and not move. lol. I think the weight limit on it was like 200 pounds. So no good for me. To get a good one I can use I think would be like a couple thousand dollars. It's so stupid to make machines that are supposed to "help fat people" when real fat people can't even use them. Sheesh. Well, no way I'll ever get one unless we win the lottery. UGH.

On the homefront news...... same old same old really. I don't know what's been up Mom's butt but she's really been in a foul mood for weeks now. It seems like she just doesn't want me to be around her so I'm going to try to just avoid her and stay by myself until she feels better. I know it is aggravating that I'm this old and still at home, and after the shit that went down with my old job.... now unemployed. It's not like I WANT to be sitting at home. The jobs that I can do, no one will hire me because I don't fit their 'image' and the jobs that I could get hired for cause me so much pain. So I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Eventually I guess I'm going to have to suck it up and just deal with the pain and get a physical job, if I can find one to hire me. The gods know if I have to go back to doing something like the last job I had in all honesty I probably won't be walking in five years. It really ruined my knees while I was there, and well...... It was hard to come home and after sitting down for just five or ten minutes not being able to walk hardly from my lower body swelling up and getting tight. I even had to make sure I used the bathroom before I sat down and 'relaxed' otherwise I wouldn't be able to wipe my ass. That's sad isn't it? And people think I CHOSE to be this way. Jesus if they could only get a clue. I didn't have any choice at all. I was fat when I was four years old. Damage done people before I could sleep without a nightlight. But anyways........... it doesn't matter in the end. I'm just hoping that I can at least lose maybe twenty pounds before I try to go back to work. Even with that little bit gone maybe it will help enough with me being able to sleep better so that I can drive again normally. I guess it's a good thing that I have a high pain tolerance... sure I whine and bitch about it all the time, but I endure it without having to go to the hospital. And that's where it counts I guess. Besides, I don't have the money to go there. HAHA!

Mom bought a set of tupperware type containers today. Not a bad deal at kmart, 64 pieces for 10 bucks. I've been telling her that we needed to get some because we don't have any to use. And with me doing the cooking now and trying to make her lunches for work, we really need them. It will save on us having to buy saranwrap, tin foil and sandwich baggies. I picked out a sandwich container too that holds a sandwich on one side and has spots on the opposite side for grapes or chips or something. It's neat, and it will come in very handy when I'm packing her lunch. So anyways, I washed and dried the new plastics and cleaned out a cabinet to put them in.

Now I'm just trying to think of what I can cook for dinner. I have some chicken breasts but I dunno if that's what I want. Well there's not much in there to choose from so I guess it'll be either that or Hamburger Helper. We have a lot of deer meat in the freezer, I am going to have to get some recipes and start fixing some of that. I think there are some roasts that I could thaw out and put in the crockpot one day for stew. That would be good I bet.

Well I guess I need to go do a few things around the house. Laundry to be done, putting the rest of the dishes away and Dad wants me to feed the birds. Talk later.

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 12:09 PM