Lovebuds Anonymous

You know, some days you have bad days. And some days you have REALLY bad days. And then there are good days like today! :)

It doesn't take much to make me happy. All I ask for is that no one pisses on my shoes and for things just to go in a decent fashion. *pops in the Jonny Lang cd* Ah... Lie to me. And tell me everything is alright. *smile*

Thursday sweet Thursday. Today I finally decided to drag Mom and go to the TOPS meeting. I had emailed with one lady who is a member but I didn't know anyone who was involved with the group. No clue what to expect. We walked in the door and there was like a mad rush of old women welcoming us. The crazed excitable german lady just tickled me right off the bat. I have a thing for old excitable happy german women. They are the absolute coolest people to listen to. LOL.

We sat there and listened. I even participated in the discussions. And *GULP* I actually weighed in this morning. I was at 351 (and that takes a LOT of guts to admit. Yes I know I'm a fatass so please save your breath). The good news I guess is that last time I weighed back last year at the Voc. Rehab. place I was at 357. So yay I lost 6 pounds! Which is impressive I guess seeing that throught he holidays and even up until now I haven't been sticking to the water and less sweets thing too well. Granted, I've cut down on sodas.... but not like I can do. Better lost than gained though!

So we are going to join TOPS. They said that there are some young members but they just weren't able to make it today. I don't care though; I don't mind older people and besides, everyone was way cool and had so much energy! The one big thing that I noticed about this group is how positive everyone is. The other group I was going to (the bypass group) are nice and all... but man they're so fucking negative all the time. I know that they're there to talk about problems and stuff but DAMN. lol. I don't even want to have the surgery anymore after listening to them. It's like I told the women today I talked to... I have way too many health problems now. And listening to the people who've had the surgery; they have a shitload of health problems still, just of a different nature. And I asked the women today... why would I want to trade one set for another? I want to get rid of them all together!!!!!

So M-O-O-N spells T-O-P-S!!!! I think it's going to be good because the idea of weighing every week and telling them whether you gained or lost (you don't have to tell anyone how much you weigh or how much you gained or lost) will give me incentive to do better. Even already today I was thinking about drinking my water and trying to lose so that when I go back next week I can tell them that I lost. Even if it's just a quarter of a pound. You know everyone has always said that the bigger you are, the easier it is to lose the weight when it starts coming off. I am so hoping that's the truth! Because I think it would be sweet to really get on the bandwagon and start rolling off the pounds and see how those old women react. LOL. I want to lose it more now just so I can see them get all giddy. hehehe. I love old people sometimes. They can be so cute, just like children.

So anyhow... it made me happy today just to be in that environment. Everyone was super duper nice and didn't make me feel like I was a blimpo, even though I was the biggest person there by far. They all said that we all were in the same boat and all of us were dealing with life issues that was making us eat for whatever reason. And that's true. When we were leaving (in the truck) and Mom and I were talking we both decided that we're going to start coming to TOPS and just say goodbye to the gastric bypass group. I really never fit in with them anyway, and we both felt way comfortable immediately with the group today. And I was telling Mom that I felt like I'd get more out of this group. I even started getting teary eyed because we were talking about how positive this group was, unlike the bypass group... and I told her that was one of the big things I liked about it and that I really needed more positive things in my life because I don't have that many. LOL I'm such an emotional dweebie.

Ok well enough about that. We went to the base and got my layaways off. So now I have LOTR Trivial Pursuit, 3 LOTR puzzles in metal tins, a LOTR Risk game, and 2 LOTR checkers sets. hehe. I don't know if I have enough room in my closet. We put some beautiful silk shirts on layaway for Allen's birthday. They were 75% off! And they were 100% silk and soooooo lovely. And they even looked like they were sort of cowboyish. Well, not really... but we both think that they will look awesome when he puts on his cowboy hat and boots and belt buckles. He'll look like a dressy cowboy then. :)

Oh yeah I bought me a food weigher thingiemajig. So now I can see how much meat is 2 ounces. LOL!

Washed 4 loads of clothes today. I'm tired of seeing the bags of clothes on my bedroom floor. Plus I wanted to see what I had that I could still wear for summer. I really want to go to Wally world and see if they have any short pants or capri's in my size. I doubt it, but every now and again they'll have something. Also wanted to try on those Just My Size shirts that they got in.

I washed dishes too and put some away. MAN I hate dishes.... but oh well. I did 'em. Then I made dinner. It was SOOOO yummy; Woman you'd want some lol. I made Fire-grilled chicken sandwiches with Lemon-Dill Mayonnaise sauce. And I took what was left of the steak fries and cooked them in the oven with some Greek seasoning on them. YUM! And for dessert we had sliced peaches. Oh and pink lemonade. All in all it wasn't a bad meal as far as fat and stuff b/c we baked the fries and the chicken wasn't breaded. :)

LMFAO. Well now... I'm on the phone listening to you talk about Oreo not wanting to piss. Why oh why did you name your dogs after sweet foods? Hmm... maybe you have a worse sweet tooth than me. LOL. Poor Oreo didn't potty and now she's inside.

So I'm figuring that you won't read my bloggie now that I told you on the phone.

Heh *buuuuurp*. Damn, it's 8oclock and I don't know what to do. I don't feel like watching tv. I don't feel like being on the computer really. heh. What in the hell do I do? Maybe I should go riding. That would be an AWESOME ending to today. But, I don't think I can because there isn't much gas in the truck. Aww damnit. Maybe I'll play a game until Mom gets up and then when she's off to work I'll head to bed. Sounds like a plan!!!

So hookah, I'm out of here for now. ...... I tell myself that everything will be just fine, I'm just goin thru a little downtime.

Oh yah, forgot to mention...... I think the eyedrops are working cuz I have less eye gook than normal!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Later chica, Love ya.
The Rump-Thumpin Rat Snatch (my new gangsta name)

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 5:13 PM