Lovebuds Anonymous

It's been a while hasn't it? I don't know why I haven't been around, we all know I've been online. I guess I just felt like there was nothing much to blog about the past few days. Married folk might have no lives, but single fat chicks don't either. hehe!

I'm still fighting this furking chronic bronchitis.... going on the 5th or 6th week now. DAMN! Knock on wood, but I think it's actually starting to get a little better. I am glad that it didn't get as bad as in January though, or I would have been half dead by now. Of course, that was one big reason that I lost weight in December/January. LOL! There was a point there where in about a week and a half the only food I had eaten and kept down was two of those little Jello vanilla pudding cups. It was all I could do to keep my cough syrup down; and most times I would throw that and whatever water I had drunk right back up too. So, as you can imagine... I was weak, miserable, half-dead and VERY irritated. Bleah. Finally broke down and went to Dr's Care.... $200.00 later (for something that I already knew what it was) I had 4 pills and some syrup. Took about two more weeks and it was gone....

Ok so what is my point you ask? I can't keep paying $200 fucking dollars for something that I already know what it is! I get it at LEAST four times a year...... that's almost a thousand bucks a year. And I have no insurance. I have no job. BAH!!! Bastard government for not having a national health coverage plan.

Anyway, this week is the week starting back at Curves and walking. So I'm hoping that I can post a loss this week, even if it's just a little one.

So I've been talking to this really nice girl from up north who emailed me after I had posted on a TOPS message board. We have a lot in common; we're both very overweight and trying to get healthy, we're both very depressive and have had a hard time of it, we were both cutters, etc. In talking with her though, I've realized a lot about myself. I've had a hard life, shit I know most people have. And I went through a lot of emotional crap b/c of how I was treated. I've been the alcoholic when I was 13; I was a pill-popper and suicidal. But I realize now that things could have been so much worse. This lady that has been sharing her life stories with me has been through so many things that are so much worse than anything I experienced. And while I know that it's mostly the way that people respond to things and not the actual events that transpire, I can't help but think that she is such a strong person. And that inspires me somewhat. It also gave me a hefty reality slap, which I suppose I really needed. I hope we remain email buddies for a long time. I guess I'll get into that more later sometime, right now the Scorned one is telling me that our weekly trivia game is about to start.

So ta-ta for now. I got a fast car...... I got a plan to get us out of here. Remember when we were driving in your car..... and I felt like I belonged.

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 9:05 PM