Lovebuds Anonymous

ENERGY BY INJECTION??

Someone please pump some liquid energy into my veins.

I swear, I have no clue why I am so dog tired these past few days, but it's steadily getting worse. Today was the winner by far. I woke up, and within half an hour had to go back to bed. When did my sorry ass roll out of the fart sack you ass? At 6:20pm. And I hate sleeping that long, because you just feel achey all over. And so I still feel drug out and tired, and now achey. Bleah. Perhaps I have a lovely psychic vampire attached? It wouldn't shock me.

Ah well, I didn't get as much done this past week as I'd like to have done. I did make it to the college which was a big step for me. I made an appointment with the vocational rehabilitation counselor, but she didn't have an opening until the 14th. So I don't know if I should just wait until then or go ahead up to the unemployment office and talk to someone about that WIA program. I suppose I shouldn't wait; it's just more time wasted after all.

*Sigh* Does everyone have these moments? These moments when even though you KNOW you're supposed to be positive, the blackness is just so damn comfortable. Yeah, everyone does I guess. I'm not special in the slightest in that remark.

"but my dreams they aren't as empty
as my conscious seems to be
i have hours, only lonely
my love is vengeance
that's never free"

SO!! Children, what's going on in your world today? I've been reading lately on these "underground" newspapers and things, and have been chatting with different folks about politics. The more I think about it the more these kinda crazed people and their conspiracy theories make sense. It makes me wonder, exactly what freedoms we're fed to believe that we have, when in truth we are shown only what certain ones want us to see. Or hear or read. It isn't like the mass majority gets to fly out of country and see our country from the outside's view. Now, don't get me wrong.... I love America. But I'm curious, exactly how 'sheltered' are we? To really see how certain people in power and certain families/companies are tied together is really amazing. I've always been fascinated with so-called 'secret societies' (albeit maily from a twisted religious-nosy fetish way), but I never realized just how out there in the open some of them are as far as members. Perhaps conspiracy theorists aren't so crazy eh? It's something fun to ponder.

As someone mentioned to me a few days ago however, it is the age of Aquarius. And there is no society so big and powerful as to hold back the sands of truth forever. Their karma is seriously building up some massive 'gonna-get-ya' energy. *shivers* I'd hate to be them when that ball comes on the swingback.

I'm in a mini-rut at the moment. Nothing serious, I assume that there's a reason I've felt like shit lately. Maybe something wants me to be at home and not venturing out in the world. I just feel like sitting in a dark room, with slow mellow music playing in my ears blocking out the outside world.

Sometimes I depress myself. lol.
Axe yo mama and dem I said how they durrin.

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 6:08 PM