Lovebuds Anonymous

WHO IS MY BABY DADDY?

Well May's officially over I guess. It was a good month all in all. Now I'm wondering what June has to offer. It being the first day of June I made myself a deal that I was going to start the rest of my life this month. Yeah yeah I know, you've heard it all before. But I got to try don't I? So, I went to the college today to talk to someone about classes. Hey that's a big deal for me! Even things like that make me nervous. Man I'm such a damn wimp. Anyways, the lady wasn't there but I'm going back tomorrow to see her. I figure I made the first step today, so I'm proud of me.

My horoscope for today:

You have to agree with the idea that the truth will set you free. When you know something with all of your heart, embrace it and you'll feel much better. Step through the first door that opens for you. Get into the habit of expecting access to other places that you need to visit. This is both a cause and effect of your sudden outburst of honesty. Every relationship in your life will benefit from your new attitude. Strangers are attracted by your clarity, even though they might first see it as a mystery to unravel.

Hmmmm...... so I think this sounds good. Wouldn't you agree? The truth will set you free. What truth though? The first door that opens for me....... Ok, this is going to be difficult to decipher. I suppose the cosmos wants me to be more honest, so I'll try it. I try to be honest anyway, but you know...sometimes it is just easier and better for everyone to not be so honest. I'll try tho cosmos, I promise!

So I saw two of my friends from upstate this past weekend. It was nice. Spent some time with my friend here as well, who I haven't seen much of lately. I'm assuming that she must have talked to our friends about me not visiting her as much, because he mentioned it to us while I was there. I guess no one is really going to understand why I distanced myself except for me, but I'm going to try to explain it to him. I wish I could explain it to her, but I know it'll hurt her feelings and she'll get defensive and so I'll just keep on chugging along.

There really are two parts to the reason. The first part is that honestly, I just can't take actually physically being in her house for very long. I'm not trying to be mean, but she has a LOT of animals.. (and I am an animal lover but I fear that she is actually what is labeled a "collector or hoarder"). She is a great person who truly loves animals. And I've never met anyone who would go out of their way to rescue or save an animal if they could. But you know, sometimes it gets to be too much. It just gets to me. I have problems with my eyes anyway because of allergies, but to be brutally honest, it's the smell that really gets to me. And that I always find fleas crawling on me when I'm there. It used to not bother me so bad, but for some reason now it does. Maybe subconsciously it's a wall that I've put up. I dunno, I feel bad saying it but it's not my fault. I feel the way I feel. The other reason is that many times I don't feel like I'm respected. I've tried to explain it to people, but it seems like no one really is able to understand, so I guess I'll just stop trying to share things and give in to the notion that I'm supposed to become the official bootlicker. LOL.

But on to better news. Yesterday was a great day. I felt great, I mean I was really just happy with myself for a change. WOW what a nice feeling to have! June oh June, please be the month that I've been needing!

Blog more later. I'm about to go wake up a snoring woman.

PS... The Gods of the Sorry computer hate me

PSS...Tell yo mama I axed how she durrin.

PSSS.... WHO IS MY BABY DADDY?

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 8:27 AM