Lovebuds Anonymous

Tsk Tsk Not Sneaky Enough

You guys ever have someone try to get something over on you and they just don't seem to be able to get by with it? Hehe. And usually it's someone who thinks they're so slick. ;) When this happens life is good. I don't mind laughing in the shadows bwahaha. It's nice at least to know that there are people out there more ignorant than I.

Click, click... and the wheels fall into place.

In other news, more drama in the Golden Girl's league. Apparently I am not allowed to have a bad day or week or month. And apparently I'm not allowed to have a life outside of this group. Also apparently, although I've been showing up every meeting and sending out cards, etc... I have been 'distant' and not giving support to others. (To which someone asked me... must I hold their hand? I don't know.... LOL). But what's strange is that I got no support. I ask myself, if I was so 'distant' and in a 'bad mood', why didn't anyone ask ME if I needed support? Because I surely did not get it (notice I sent out cards... but I never got any from them) ... and rather than offer it people simply quit, blaming me for their decision issues. I feel sorry for people who blame their problems on others (namely, me).

Me and my Mother... the ones who hasn't been supporting? Us, who helped one member move to a new house. Us, who had to do most of the packing because the other person with us couldn't stand to smell the apartment they were leaving and had to stay outside in the truck. Us, who took pot roast dinners to her when she couldn't bring herself to cook and was tired of fast food. (While I was sick, mind you.) Us, who ALWAYS are the ones expected to drive everyone else around and usually gets no gas money in return AND we have to put up with their attitudes and habits in OUR car. Us, who went out and bought furniture and toys and food for a member's son and grandkids when him and his wife divorced and he had nothing to start out with. Us, who took a member with us to the mountains because she had never been and we wanted her to have a vacation for herself where no one wanted anything out of her. Us, who always went out of our way to do something for everyone in our group. Yeah, we sound real unsupporting don't we? Too bad I can't find 'unsupporting' friends like us. LOL!!!

But that is life, and so be it! The wheel turns and it goes on. At this point I'm proud of myself. I haven't had a bad thought about it and there's nothing on my conscience. I didn't buy into their whole explanation of how 'we' had issues and that's why they were quitting. I know what I have done or haven't done and that's all I need to worry about. And we've found some new people to join so things are going well.

A lesson has been re-iterated to me though that I feel is worth passing on. One that I have known, but had become lax in paying attention to. Always remember that no matter how much you trust and respect you have in people, they won't hesitate to take advantage of it and use it to try and make you feel responsible for their problems. Two years ago I would have let it get to me and would have taken that black spot into my soul. I am proud.... things have changed and it seems that I, at least, am the bigger person... both in stature and in action. lol!!! So I say keep the black spot to yourself because it's not mine peeps. teehee!

I also had the Gathering a few weekends back. It was a riot. More on that later, for now my whore is calling and I must depart. I miss you peoples!! What's been going on??

- posted by Loki's Concubine @ 5:07 PM